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[10 Jul 2005|05:49pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | ecstatic ]

I found a lust journal. It's not beautiful but it's functional. And I have already christened it with a story of passion, tehe. I'm looking for some ideas on how to decorate the cover. I was thinking it would be *quite* cool to have some sort of drawing on the front... I was thinking a simple copy-sketch of a famous painting. Like "The Kiss" by Klimt, or something similar. I was wondering if you guys knew of any paintings that would be relatively simple to copy, unlinke "The kiss", that still evoked that feeling of... desire? Bleh, I don't know what to look for! ;) Any and all help would be appreciated! :)

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AL [29 Jun 2005|10:58am]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | artistic ]

Avril Lavigne is engaged!

Good for her! :) I think that's really cool. And her hubbie to be is a cutie, so all the better! ;)

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My hot air isn't venting [01 Apr 2005|04:35pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | bitchy ]

AIIEIEIIEIRIGIGIAIFIGOXIGAIHIIHIHIGIIHIIGIHAGIGAAAAAAAAAAA! I AM SO CRAZY. BITCHY BITCH BITCH BITCh bIchsd BEEEATCHHHHHH! AERRRRRRRRGGGGGGFUCKFUCKUCKFUCKFUKEIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIR! *punches pillow*

WHERE THE HELL IS MY SANITY? HUNH? YOU DON'T KNOW? DON'T EVEN SAY WHAT YOUR THINKING, I KNOW WHAT IT IS, I CAN SEE IT IN YOUR EYES. D O N ' T S A Y A N Y T H I N G.

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[03 Mar 2005|07:32pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | content ]

Hey gals,

You can disregard this if you want, but I just listened to Shinedown's remake of Skynrd's "Simple man" and it's really good! I think I like it as much as the original! So if you've got a miute, give it a spin.

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I swear I am not obsessed w/ bras, it's just a subject near and dear to my heart (literally!) [06 Feb 2005|08:47am]

ouida_von_leron
Nothing gets me quite as p.o.'d as a new bra.

Seriously.

How comfortable is it to have brand new elastic and stiff lace strapped around your body? NOT VERY! :P

I only search out new bras when I have too. Like when all my other bras are literally falling apart and the elastic's scrunched up or broken. As soon as you out it on, you don't even notice it anymore cause it fits soooo well. You don't even have to adjust the straps cause they wouldn't DARE move on you. Unfortunately they reach this stage right before they go to the big trash can in the sky. WHY??????? *moan*


Ugh, if it was up to me, you could get stonewashed/stretch fit bras, just like jeans, the kind you just slide into. WOULDN"T THAT BE A GAZZILLION TIMES BETTER???

Yes, I think it would.

But I guess you can't make bras out of cotton, since they'd shrink right?


You just can't win! *bangs head on computer desk*

~~~~~



Happy joy! Mom said that one of the hooks on my black bra came off, and she took it out of circulation to fix it! So it's not lost!!! :D


~~~~~~


Hmm, I kind of feel like spilling my guts, but for some reason I don't want to do it on my journal....
I think too many people read it. It's not anyone in particular, it's just to grand a number.

"These are my confessions....nahnahanah, I don't know the words, my confessions....lalala"

Actually, I don't have anything to confess.. But ya'll will just have to listen anyway....


My litle bro is teaching me how to play soccer, which is so much fun I am amazed. BUT. It's so much harder then I thought it would be, I can't explain it!

I went to watch his indoor game, and their goalie the first half was FANTASTIC!!! TEN F**KING BILLION TIMES BETTER THEN ME....

And he's sort of cooolieo looking-ish, ok so yeah, he's cute... Crap, he's like 13... AHHhhhh.... *eye roll* You know why????

Cause he looks like Rob Thomas from Matchobox 20! Dang.

AHHHHHHHH! I just realized, Wes told me the goalie/Rob was in his PRESCHOOL CLASS!!!!! *shoots self with stapler*

Ok...

Hm, Trying to figure out my birthday and getting kind of swept away by the other things choking me to death, like the ACT and my highschool paper...

At the same time, feeling kind of weird and floaty, like there's nothing going on and I can just drift away...

I think I have more to say, but I have to eat breakfast. So till then, faretheewell darling SB readers!

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[29 Nov 2004|09:11pm]

the_theorist
PATRICK'S LIST OF SEXY VOICES:

John T. S. AHHHHHH so hot!

Mick Jagger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jonathan Taylor Thomas....totally

The dude from Bad Company!

Kurt Cobian...totally

Rob Thomas

Danny from school.... *squeal*

Josh Northcutt....from third grade.... I still remember his voice...

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More rambling rambles.... [29 Nov 2004|07:05pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | bouncy ]

So guys, can I invite Audra to join this commune or what? I mean, I guess she could have seen and just not been interested, but it would be nice to invite her anyways.

Yeah, so there's that. And hmm, I came up with another list idea, but i don't know if you'll like it that much Kim... ;) Don't worry. It's not dirty. haha

It's

(*drum roll*)

SEXIEST GUITAR LICKS EVER COINED BY MALE FINGERS (yes, that means no Heart)

Actually, I think this list will be hard to make. Ya'll will need to help me. :)

I'll start. With the obvious.

Solo from Stairway? Hmm, how about the opening riff (lick, riff same diff right?) from "Play that Funky music". Not so obvious, eh?

Okay. Now somebody else go.

(What is it with me and sex and music????????)

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Jared [29 Nov 2004|11:35am]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | happy ]

Ok GUY BRAGGING!

So I don't have a boyfriend, so I can't tell you guys about all the cute little weird things me does when we're alone etc etc etc. So I get to tell ya'll about the guy down the street.

First. Don't get excited since I haven't seen him for several months (I've only seen him like twice, and he has a gf.... whatever! ;)

But. Good lord. On a good day. On a GOOD day. He looks like the guy from crossfade in the 'Cold' video! AGHHHHHH! lol

Okay, be jealous now. hehe (I'm kidding. lol.)

I'm just happy. Maybe I should stop.

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LIST! whoo! [29 Nov 2004|11:17am]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | horny ]

Okay, I challenge you guys to make some sort of guy list.

This place is dying the long and painful death of inactivity.

So it's list time girlies!

C'mon it'll be fun!


MAR'S LIST OF SEXY VOICES:

The guy from Future Leaders of the world! Aghh, makes me shiver.

Vin Diesil (You guys are sick of hearing about that aren't you? I'll shut up. But he does have a sexy voice.)

Butch Walker (But his hair is sexier, dang.)

The guy with the deep voice and long hair from Big & Rich. He's not all that great to look at though. But his voice makes up for it.

Kurt Cobain (Duh.)

Chad Kroger (I love 'Feelin way to damn good', and 'Why don't you and I'.)

Adam Levine (The guy from Maroon 5)

Gosh, anyone with a sub-humanly deep voice really.

I need to make another list.

Aggh WAIT! I forgot Rob Thomas! AAAAA! He's practically #1!

Okay.. list ideas anyone?

What would you like to hear us talk about Matt? ;) Any conversation in particular you'd just looooovvveee to over hear?

lolololol :P


It's okay really, as long as it's not to sick (That goes for the yas too.)I'm willing to list ANYTHING!

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[08 Nov 2004|06:58pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | frustrated ]


I AM SUCH A BITCH SOMETIMES.

GO CRAWL BACK IN YOUR CORNER AND TRY NOT TO RUIN EVERYONE ELSE'S LIFE, ****.

PLEASE, I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT EVERYONE ELSE.

IT'S TIME FOR US TO LEARN TO SHUT THE FUCK UP.

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Random quote: [16 Sep 2004|06:51pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | weird ]

"If you kissed my eyes, your lips would taste salt"

An excellent quote from "Crocodile Lies", a poem by Marcus Flutie (Flu, lol ;), the sexiest fictional character ever (except for the oh-so-hormonal people from the Game).

He has inspired me to make my own iron-on t shirts. Even though I haven't, uh, actually made any yet. heh. :)

I just can't decide what to put on them (I want to put EVERYTHING! But my chest is only so big...lol)

Also I don't have a t shirt to make it with, but, : AGH! I am in SUCH a creative mood. (No, it's not talent. It's the depression.) I really really badly want to make some clothes, but I'm too LAZY! ARGRHGRHGRH! (grumble grumble)

OMGosh, YO, it was so funny! When my cousins were here we spent a LOT of time watching TV trying to figure out where Ivan was going to end up and I didn't realize how HILARIOUS our commercials are!

I'm SERIOUS!

First off, they have the thing for "Levitra" which is just funny on it's own, since it's for "erectile dysfunction", which would be a KILLER hangman word! OH YEAH! LMAO!

And they had lots of others, but they aren't that funny if I just say them, but if you want hours of entertainment, go watch the commercials in between weather updates!

Since I love makin lists:

Mar's list of possible t-shirt ideas, some of which are lame, and some are stolen, and I've prety much decided which ones I'm going to make into t-shirts, but I've provided them for viewing pleasure cause I'm curious which ones ya'll like:

"The Forecasters"
(kind of an inside thing, since that's the name of Carson's band. Would be even more awesome if I could silk-screen it. but I don't know how to do that yet...)

"Thursday"
(Stolen from Marcus's 'days of the week shirts')

"Cominghome"
(Stolen from Marcus's 'Anti-Homecoming' shirt)

"You. Yes. You."
(Also from the cutie, Flutie. hehe ;)

"I'm useless but not for long"
(Line from a song)

"Game Master"
(Another one from Marcus, have considered changing it to 'Mistress')

"She changes everything she touches
Everything she touches changes"
(Random cool saying.)

"AA Bottom"
(My pathetic attempt at humor...)

"Practically perfect in every way"
(Mary Poppin's mantra)

"The seasick oompa loompas"
(The awesome name that got vetoed for the name of my bro's soccer team)

"Don't mind me I'm not really here"

"if you cannot find what you seek within yourself
you'll never find it outside of yourself"
(Wise words of wisdom from somewhere.)

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I feel bitchy, oh so bitchy! I feel bitchy and witchy and something....agh, fuck it. [01 Sep 2004|09:15pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | cool ]

YO! Warning you now. This is not a happy sunshine-y post.

Read only if you like cussing and hormoneicly uneven rants.

~~~~


Okay, with that out of the way.

I don't even know what I want to bitch about.

I'm sure I'll think of something. I have enough ammo to throw, trust me.

Gosh, well, let's see....

I miss everyone, but I have no guilt about skipping class today.
I am LOVIN "I believe in a thing called love"! I got the guitar tab eariler today and *DAMN*, I can't play the solos worth shit but they're fun to listen too.

Heheheheh...

Okay, my little bro just walked into the room so I'm going to put some dots in here so he can't see my cussing above... hold on...
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Okay, better now.

I've been feeling very musical today, which must be a side effect of the hormonies. I've practiced guitar 4 times today.

I'm bearly getting over the worst period I've ever had my entire life. I had cramps one week leading up too (I NEVER get cramps) and when it actually came, gosh I lost what seemed like a CUP of blood in 2 days. And it's not fucking over YET!!!

AGH! But it was made slightly better by the reading of an incredible book while all this was going on. "Second Helpings" by Megan McCafferty is one of the best books I've ever read. It's actually the sequel to "sloppy firsts" which I've never read, but I saw Second Helpings on the cart at the library and I was like "screw it, so what if I read it out of order?" which was strange because usually reading a series out of order is almost as bad as reading the end of the book to find out how it ends. I.E. REALLY bad. Cheating. At reading. Ugh.

Free Fallin by Tom Petty is a really good song. It's so funny cause that's actually one of my Dad's CDs. lol. Of course now it's "cool" to listen to "Classic rock" like Led Zeppelin and Pink Floyd (NEWSFLASH: I don't like Pink Floyd, I mean, Dark side of the moon is ok... but geez, what's all the hype for. Don't even say another brick in the wall. Ugh, HEAVILY dislike.)

It is REALLY FUNNY for me to see that counter-culture is cool, which it can't be by definition. It's like the 80s all over again. HAHAHAH. Bleh, I could make the just about everything in Hot Topic or find it on the internet for less. It just goes to prove if you have money you can be anybody. Or Pretend to be anyway.

I should go do something crazy like go alter one of my dresses and wear it tomorrow, or get my nose pierced, or dye my hair a WARM green (can't mix palettes can we?) or chop it off.

I wish I had pair of boots that were humongus psuedo-army boots. That lace up my calves. I shold design some.

I miss designing clothes. You wanna knw something stupid? When Audra first brought out her modified clothing I felt all weird like, ok, who I now? I can't be the backwards fashionista who does her own clothes. I can't like Converse anymore. (I have to admit, it seems like everyone's wearing them, so, they're less attractive.) But then my Mom said, "It's really neat that Audra likes fashion design too, I bet you guys would be great friends." FRIENDS? WTF?

Oh, god mom, you're right. I;m sorry I was distracted by my stupid ego again. Damn.

She is. I have to admit, the rebellious army print teen is not exactly my look, (I prefer to more subtle in my movement)but still, gah, I could totally relate to her.

Oh, something I've wanted to say for a while: (Please don't take this the wrong way Kim. I mean this nicely.) I CAN DESIGN YOUR WEDDING DRESS! IF YOU *WANT* MEAG TO DESIGN IT THEN, FINE, DO THAT. BUT DON'T THINK I CAN'T, BECAUSE I'VE BEEN DESIGNING WEDDING DRESSES SINCE LAST SUMMER. Also, if I don't design your wedding dress, it's ok if I don't do anything else. I won't feel left out. I can be a guest and I won't care. I don't need to do something to feel loved. Thanks though dahling.

;)

OK, that's all I can think of. End.

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I feel yucky... [25 Aug 2004|08:44pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | apathetic ]

I feel yucky because I feel like I don't have a connection to anyone anymore. I'm finding it hard to care. I feel like I'm burning out. Or mellowing out. I've felt like this for about two months, and dear, it sucks.

I don't know what to do about it.

"Sure sure Kim, I don't care if you date Chad." And as soon as I said it, it was true. I don't care.

'Geez louise, you'd think that at least ONE of them would say something to each other! But I don't really care that much, this doesn't involve me.' And it didn't and I don't.

"You know what? Kim is skinnier then me. But you know what else? I like me better. Which is good. Cause I am me. Being skinny is not the end all be all, neither is having a flat stomache. Neither of those things really matter to me anymore. I like me the way I am."

It doesn't matter.

"Damn it. The last email I sent Chad sounds like I was talking out of my ass. And the one he sent back was patronizing. Ick. Possibly one of the worst things it could have been. What happened? We had some sort of chemistry going! Not nesscessarily romantic, but reading his mails made me smile and laugh, and made me want to reply back. Now I feel like shit, and if I reply it feels forced...

Who cares? Oh well, I don't have to keep a perfect image of myself, it's not like I'm trying to attract him as a BS, sorry I meant BF. And even if I was, I shouldn't try to show him a glorified image of myself. I am NOT perfect. He is going to hear me say something stupid, or fart in public. I am HUMAN. That's what I do. I am real. If he doesn't like me, then he doesn't have to have me. Which is good because I don't CARE about him anymore."

There is something very freeing about not caring what anyone thinks. It's the apathey that bothers me. (The redundence is staggering.)

But what I really mean is: It's nice not to let other people's view of what youu should be influence who you really are, but it sucks that even if it's a good view I still don't care.

I feel weird sticking thsi at the end but I want to say it so, deal with it.

I sort of have almost always felt that Kim and I were in friendly compeition. Academics were, obviously harder to compare, since she was older but still I always felt there was a *slight* comparsion. And, of course, who was skinnier, who had bigger breasts, whatever.

But now. I've stepped aside.

Kim, dahlin, I lvoe you. You can be the skinniest, smartest, biggested breasted college girl ever. And I will still feel good about myself.

That is one of my biggest accomplishments. I think.

Kim, go shine, go marry Chad, I will be your MOH, and I will be happy for you.

:)

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A non-beeatchy post! [08 Aug 2004|05:51pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | happy ]

AHHHHH! I was just going back through the old commune (ity) posts, and they are SO FUNNY!

They're probably only funny to me because I have a warped sense of humor, but still.

It's so good to look back to what I wrote when I was really pissed off or bitchy, and LAUGH about it!

It's so cleansing! Ya'll need to go read all your old posts, it's like therapy. And we all know we need THAT right? lol

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X-posted [27 Jul 2004|12:05pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | burned out ]

I have the strangest feeling of seperatedness from my life right now.

I have tons of school stuff coming up, and social stuff too, I'm just not as fired up about it as I usually am.

It's almost like I'm living someone else's life until they come back.

It's not a very nice feeling.

Blech.

I'm not excited about anything.

~~~

I've finally found something to fix about myself. Actaully my mom did.

I don't work as a teamember. I'm much more of a lone wolf type.

It's really excellent because I've been praying for something like this to come up for me to improve myself.

The bad thing is. I don't want to. I mean. I do. Just. ARGH. My mom pointed it out by saying I have a closed mind.

Yeah, right mom. *I* have a closed mind?

That's rich coming from you.

Just last night you were complaining about "my" music being too headbanger. It was Matchbox 20. MATCHBOX 20! Good God mom. Grow up.

Just because the first song on the album has guitar and bass tracks in it, does not in any way make it "headbanger". GOD!

I am NOT closed minded.

I DO have problems working as a team.

But I AM NOT CLOSE MINDED! I am NOT I am NOT I AM NOT!!!

How DARE you say that!

I dare you look at Dad with a little smile hwhen I say that YOU"RE closed minded!

You think I'm some stupid teenage rebelious stereotype, because if I was, then you'd automatically be right, right? I would just be being argumentative, so why should I be right? You wouldn't even have to think about it would you?

~~~

I think the reason I am troubled so much by this, is maybe because it is true. A little bit.

God, I hate it when I do that. Figure out my mother is right. SMACK dab in the middle of when I'm angry with her! I don't get to fully sit out my anger. It gets chopped off before it's been exhausted. Shit. *rubs temples* I hate it when she's right and I'm wrong. It makes me feel so insuperior. Even though I'm not. I know I'm not. I know almost as much about growing up and being mature as she does. Sometimes I think I'm more mature then she is. She's come a long way from where she was. When she was little. God, I would HATE to have gorwn through what she has. It must have been hell. I thank God for my family. But she still goes back to self destructive or obsessive complusive behaviors occaisionally. It drives me freakin NUTS! I cannot stand it when your parents are wrong but you can't SAY anything about it, because they'll punish you within an inch of your life! How will THEY grow up if they don't fix their problems? Out of the mouths of babes, they say. Like it' so amazing. Babies and children are much more mature then people think. They're just different. Onto themselves they may not be as mature as adults, but as far as observers go, children seem to be far better then adults.

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Now I knw I'm just being paranoid.... [20 Jul 2004|06:13pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | angry ]

Don't you just love it when you've gotten to the point in your life when you jump your barriors, face your demons, and you've forgotten all the things that are wrong with your life. How about being depressed for no reason and un-justly being dissapointed in your friends, only because you're to stupid to ask for what you really need, but then, not, because you don't know what you need.

Shoot.

You know what's worse?

Seeing everyone else's problems and not your own! You feel like this stuck up prick, and you don't want to say anything or do anything, except possibly give back this sight that never asked for and don't want.

It's kind of like when you realize your parents aren't perfect, and not only taht, you know exactly what's wrong with them and how they should fix it.

It's exactly like that, only not *quite* as bad as for your parents, because they've been your beacon and mentor for so long. It's still no falsh in the pan either. It gives you the feeling that you are more mature, even though you know you are not. Real mature people face their problems and help others through theirs instead of only seeing the psychosis in others and wanting to run away instead of help.

I suppose I'm in between these two examples. I obviously know their's a problem. Unless I really don't have a problem, and I'm just trying to get attention...

I HATE it when I do that.

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HAHHHHHH! lol [19 Jul 2004|12:26pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | weird ]

"Fever for the flava" by Hot Action Cop is so *hem* INTERESTING!

It's so funny! "I got the green glow under my car!"

~~~

Ok, I'm finally going to spill about the NC trip!

LOL, I'm sure everyone wants to know *wink wink* right! *wink*.

No seriously, I've never been around so many guys my entire life. So, sinceI love guys, and I love lists, I'm going to mkae a list of the sexiest/hottest/nicest looking guys that I saw in NC:

MAR'S LIST OF HOT NC GUYS:

# The hot "Jesus man" that was our guide on the white water rafting trip. Pat and I thought he looked like Ryan Gosling with longer curlier more blond hair! He was very sexy! His name was Josh, which I swear is probably *THE* hot guy name! Anyway, Wes though he looked like Jesus, hence the name. That observation was followed by multible jokes about being "struck down" for wanting to jump the "Jesus" man. But I'm a godless heathen, so what do I care??? lol :P

# This guy who was at the same campsite as us, who was hot in n average guy way. He kept watching us while we were wading in the creek.

# The guys in the campsite next to ours. THEY were HOT! Kept looking at us as well. Because we were so sexy in our old camping gear and french armpits! But it was funny!

# Cooper one of the Indian Guides who was there. Felt like I was cradle-robbing but DAMN! He is going to be SO sexy in two years! Who am I kidding, he's cute NOW!!!

# A guy working at the "Nantahala outdoor center" who was helping move the rafts around. He had the nicest chest have seen in a LOONNNNGGG time! ;)

# And, lastly, these two guys in downtown Bryson City, who yelled at me when we were shopping down there. It was so funny, cause you could tell they thought they were so cool, driving around in thier big black pick up truck, "WHOOO!"(said just like you'd say "DAMN")-ing at girls, (I don't think they knew how to wolf-whistle :)hehe. And when they shouted at us, I thought they were shouting at MY MOM, and anouther oneof the IG MOMS!!! THAT was HILARIOUS! Especially cause I was wearing boy shorts and an old *tye-dyed* t shirt! HAHA! I still think they were high on something. But other then the sexy Jesus, that was the funniest thing that happened all week-end.

~~~

Misc. trivia here that I thought was usuful:

DO NOT

remove ANY article of clothing after being raped!
take a shower.
go anywhere, stay where you are.


Made me feel better, in a weird way.

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Life's Tough Get a Helmet [09 Jul 2004|02:05pm]

starrkat1588
[ mood | bitchy ]

This is just something random that I've thought about lately. It's not based on anything that's happened to me recently. Anyways here it is.

It's amazing how you can know someone for years and think you know everything about them, when in reality you don't. For instance, you may know all the little things that make up your friend, but not a lot of the big things. You may know what their favorite things are, what they do when they're bored, you may even think you know what their thinking at a certain moment, but you don't. You don't know what they are thinking 24/7, you don't even know what your friends really think about you. Sure they can tell you what they think about you and you can tell your friends what you're thinking about, but they can never completely understand. Another thing that bugs me is stereotypes. Your friends may think you're this happy go lukcy person and want whatever you're on so they can be happy, but in truth the happy go lucky people will sometimes put on a smile just so their friends won't worry about them. That is sorta like me. I'm not a happy person all the time, in fact there are some days where I just want to be unhappy (as if it makes me feel better or something). Only a few have seen me unhappy. There are some days where I would rather be locked in a dim corridor with no one around and just scream at the top of my lungs, but instead I put on a smile and just go on with my life and no one ever knows. People also think I'm not capable of being ticked off or upset. On the contrary I do get ticked, it actually happens a lot, I just let it slide.

Being a hormonal teenager really sucks. I've known that all along, but there are some days where I would just like to be young again, before I worried about guys who were just friends, before I got stuck on the mood rollercoaster, before I started noticing that my parents weren't always right. It made more sense back then, but then again when you're a teenager you get to be more free then when you were a child. Anyways I guess this whole post is just a rant of a emotional teenage girl.

I'll leave everyone alone now. I'm just bored and wanted something to do. I'll just start scanning pictures in for a slideshow I'm making for my Grandmother now.

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I meant to post this yesterday but the computer was being evil [06 Jul 2004|07:19pm]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | amused ]

Oh gosh, I brag so much!

But this is brag-worthy, because it doesn't happen all that often!

My friend, Kelsey, has a crush on this guy at her school. His name is Jared, (not to be confused with my cousin Jared) and she thinks he's mighty fine. But I think he's about average hot guy-ish.

Here's what I know about him: (there is a point to this I swear!)

He plays Bass guitar and Tenor sax.

He can bench press 220.

He's in the Discovery Jazz band, (which could possibly be the best jazz band I've ever heard in my entire life.)

~~~

And guess who saw this oh so cool bass guitar playin, bench pressin, hunka man this morning pulling his trash can up the driveway WITHOUT A SHIRT ON?

ME!!! hehehe lol!

CAUSE HE NOW LIVES DOWN THE STREET!!!!!

It's a small world after, it's a small world after all!

It would be cooler if it was that skater dude instead, but for all I know he could live in my neighborhood, he could have been one of those guys who were pulling in and out of the driveway that time!

Damn! I am so LUCKY!

LOL

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ARGGHHHH! [27 Jun 2004|11:31am]

ouida_von_leron
[ mood | sad ]

I'M SUCH A BITCH!!!!!!


~sometimes~



Never here, always alone.

Nowhere to turn, no one sees her tears.

Why? Oh God, why me?

Shit, shit shit, why do I sound like every
other frickkin teenage girl on the planet?

Oh God, why couldn't I have been different?

Special, Unique, Exemplery, instead of Malformed?
~


I HATE PERIODS, DAMN IT!!!!!!!

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